Abaddon Lucifer

“You come to me with/Scars on your wrist;/You tell me this will be the last night/Feeling like this.”

Evenstar?  What’s wrong?  I ask softly, hearing the door to the second floor of me library creak open, followed by a soft padding of bare feet on thick carpet.

“I just came to say goodbye;/Didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine./But I know it’s a lie!”

He pulls himself into me lap, curls there with his arms around me neck; I obligingly fold me wings around him.  He doesn’t say anything for a long time.

“This is the last night you’ll spend alone,/Look me in the eyes so I know you know I’m/Everywhere/You want me to be./The last night you’ll spend alone,/I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go I’m/Everything/You need me to be.”

Evenstar…you know I won’t leave you; you know I’ll love you no matter what, I remind him.  He shivers briefly, but settles his head against me breast, so he can hear me heart.  Evenstar?

I know, he replies.  That’s not it.  Just a bad dream.

“Your parents say everything is your fault,/But they don’t know you like I know you,/They don’t know you at all.”

What of?

You remember my old boss at the hairdressers? She got promoted…and the new boss… doesn’t understand me.  I’ve been doing much the same as I did before, but…she just…

I’m beginning to understand.  She’s threatened to fire you?

He nods.  She said if I come in even five seconds late tomorrow, I’m gone.  Best stylist in the store or no.  And she wants me to wear ‘proper men’s clothing’…whatever that is.

“So sick of when they say,/‘It’s just a phase, you’ll be okay, you’re fine.’/But I know it’s a lie!”

Would you like me to talk to her?

I had Satan try.  It…didn’t work out.  I think she thought I was trying to intimidate her, because she got worse afterwards.  But I didn’t have another choice!  I mean, I would’ve asked you, but you were out of town for that conference, and…

Shh…it’s okay…

“This is the last night you’ll spend alone,/Look me in the eyes so I know you know I’m/Everywhere/You want me to be./The last night you’ll spend alone,/I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go I’m/Everything/You need me to be./The last night away from me.”

We’re both silent for a while, rocking gently back and forth on the padded bench where I’d been reading.  Have you tried talking to her yourself?

Mmhmm.  I’ve tried to explain that I don’t drive and I have you drive me everywhere, and I can’t help that we live so far out of town, but she just asks me if I like working here, and I have to say yes…so then she asks if it’s so big a thing to ask me to be on time.

Don’t you stay late to make up for it?  And don’t you only ever take half pay for your time after?

Mmhmm.  But then she pulls out a copy of my contract and she goes through it with me, but it’s only so she can say “this is why I’m right.”

But if the contract is the problem, it can be renegotiated.

“The night is so long when/Everything’s wrong; if/You give me your hand,/I will help you hold on/Tonight./Tonight.”

It’s not the only problem though…I’ve suggested renegotiating the contract with her, but then she asks me why she should do that for me, since she’ll then have to do that for everyone else too.

I shake me head in annoyance.  Evenstar shivers again and snuggles even closer.  I can feel my heart beating softly against his cheek.

“This is the last night you’ll spend alone,/Look me in the eyes so I know you know I’m/Everywhere/You want me to be./The last night you’ll spend alone,/I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go I’m/Everything/You need me to be.”

What time does she usually get there?

My old boss got there about an hour before everyone else.

So we’ll aim for that, though she’ll probably be waiting for us.  And then we’ll both go and talk to her.

He finally smiles.  She’ll have to cave with you…you’re that good at arguing.

I smile in response to his intended silliness.  I’m sorry you’re having so many problems at that place.

You shouldn’t have to…they’re not really your problems.

“I won’t let you say goodbye,/And I’ll be your reason why./The last night/Away from me,/Away from me.”

No…they’re your problems, and because of that, they’re mine too.

His smile gets wider, and he kisses me breastbone.  Heartbeat, he states in unconscious mimicry of Belial.

Yeah, I answer.